Homeless New Year

It's here,, a new year. Time to rebuild,, time to reload.

It's here,, a new year. Time to explore,, time to just be.

It's here,, a new year. Time for me,, not some reptile.

It's here,, the year of me.

Homeless Starts Over

I am starting over again. Have you ever done that? Being homeless and starting over is different than I thought it would be.

I suppose that the trauma of new beginnings is to be balanced by the safety of not returning to the trauma of old.

I guess the new is to be lived, while the old is to be studied and lessons learned from it. Peace.

Homeless Chaos

Here I am,, homeless in a new place and not in chaos. I always thought that would be the defining moment,, being homeless and that my life would be full of chaos,, but it isn't.

In the moment, I am no longer feeling the extreme pull of chaos,, I am feeling some peace, are you?

I hope you find the peace you may seek,, for me it is being homeless,, what's it for you? Peace.

Homeless Forever?

Homeless this year, maybe.

Homeless in the heart, not.

Homeless, it's where you are.

Homeless is not forever, peace.

Expectations Delayed

I am supposed to go to another city to meet with a client and I receive a text telling not to come until later.

Normally, this would throw me off, but this year, I'm living in the moment and not gonna worry about it.

In the end, planning leads to disaster,, i.e., my marriage and being in the moment leads to living life.

So for a homeless guy, it's no longer planning things,, it's just doing things. Peace.

Homeless Beginnings

I guess you can still say I'm homeless, just not as bad. Through the miracle of friends, I'm not living under a bridge,, I'm just homeless from the places I used to live in.

It ain't so bad, being in new places,,, what's bad is not knowing for how long? Peace.

Merry Christmas To All

Happy Homeless Christmas Eve

I write this piece while being homeless and facing the holiday season alone.

It is the greatest fear anyone can ever have,, being alone. By being alone and homeless, Christmas looses its appeal.

I hope that each of you has a wonderful Christmas and a happy new year. Peace.

Growing Old Homeless

I am growing old homeless. I do not fear the growing old part of life,, I do not fear the homelessness,, I fear being alone.

I have now told you my fears,, can you beat me? I haven't told you my dreams,, and I know those dreams keep me going. What are your dreams?

What are the dreams of the homeless? What do the homeless fear? Perhaps,, it is as always,, one must ultimately look into the mirror and face themselves. Peace.

Homeless

I am homeless and living day to day in an environment without roots. I feel alone, tired and am sore.

I suppose that in the end, the only thing that matters is the daily feelings I have and whether I keep them in or let them out.

Remember to help the homeless as they are people who have feelings too. Peace.

Shortest Day Of The Year

It's the shortest day of the year and I'm getting ready to shut down for the holidays.

I have moved to a new town and have found a flop house that I am living in right now.

I begin to feel uneasy as the move is uncertain, new and scary, but I feel better because the move is away from the old and into the new.

I wish each of you a happy holiday season and hope you have many, many more. Peace.

Christmas Joy

I remember the joy I used to have at Christmas, way before the soon to be ex whose name must never again be mentioned in public trapped me in a prison of marriage.

I remember the tree, the family get together and the happiness I had,, never to have that in the prison of marriage.

It is no wonder why there never was joy in prison,, it was all give, give, give and never receive.

I hope each of you out there, homeless or not, has joy today and is not in a prison. Peace.

Homeless Christmas

It is Christmas all over again,, another one that is quickly passing. But what does it mean when I'm homeless?

I have a candle and a plant that is in the lobby of the flop house I'm staying in, so maybe,, Christmas for me is different than for others.

I guess being homeless is not having a sense of connection,, but I have my new friend the plant in the lobby,, so it ain't all bad.

Just buy a homeless person a Christmas present this year. Peace.

Modern Homelessness

You know, I've learned that being homeless is more than just living in different places,,, it is tearing up the heart that I can't root.

I suppose that those who are also homeless, can not root and are not grounded, but I'm not sure.

Anyway, have a nice day and remember the power of self is the power of all. Peace.

Homeless Holidays

Buy a homeless man or woman or child a Christmas present,, something they would use. Buy those "throw away" people a gift from your heart this season.

Hopefully, the love you show will help them,, those "un-pretty people". Remember,, we're all just one tragedy away from being homeless. Peace.

Homeless Justice

I am responsible for those who are homeless and need justice. I am responsible for those who need legal help and can't afford it or are too proud to ask for it.

I am responsible for those,, well,, those people. I am responsible for the homeless people who need representation. Peace.

Homeless With A Plant And A Candle

I'm moving to a new area of Texas shortly and I'm looking for a plant and a candle to share my new space with.

I am moving into a flop house shortly and I know that this time will be spent to find me and to get to love me.

May each of you find joy in your own space. Peace.

Alone,, Or Am I?

Here I am alone again,, or am I? It seems to me that that most of my "prison / marriage" was spent alone with someone who didn't love me or care for anything but what she could get.

So am I alone? Or is it the new way of life,, with me? Am I homeless, or am I present with myself?

Can you be homeless and happy? Or must you be homeless and alone? Peace.

Homeless, Just Plain Homeless

I am homeless and that's all it is. Just plain homeless. I lose a very good friend today and I'm now just plain homeless.

I wonder if love isn't when 2 people know that their time together is very, very limited.

I suppose that people take others for granted when they don't appreciate another,, they only truly love when they treasure their time together.

I wonder if love isn't a fleeting moment and I wonder if the homeless and those who are present don't already know this gem. Peace.

Centering

Can you center and exist when you are homeless and question your right to exist? Well, can you? Peace.

Homeless And Moving Around

I move around a lot. It is what happens when you are homeless. I live one day here and then one day there and then one day wherever.

I am homeless and I am.

Homeless In Court

I represent homeless people in court quite frequently. They are not bad people,, just people like you and me who have never had the breaks necessary to live the life the pretty people live.

I know a hell of a lot of people who look down on the homeless,, they say "those" people are all on welfare, crack or are drunks.

I say this,, never judge a book by its cover and until you walk a mile in their shoes,, you don't know "those" people.

Remember,, we're all one event away from being homeless. Peace.

Slow Down

I am slowing down, but today I am late. I have to be in a different county and overslept. Oops.

On The Road Again

I am on the road again,, just being. I do not enjoy being on the road,, but I am no longer in areas that are what I am used to.

It's funny,, a journey begins with the first steps. I'm taking them,, do you have the courage to take them? Peace.

Wouldn't It Be Nice To,,,

Wouldn't it be nice to not be sick.

Wouldn't it be nice to live in a real house.

Wouldn't it be nice to have others play by the rules.

Wouldn't it be nice to feel love.

Wouldn't it be nice to be free.

Wouldn't it be nice to just to be nice.

Peace for your holidays.

On The Trail

I'm on the trail,, in Austin today. I have a client,, hopefully,, who is arrested and now living in the Travis County Correctional Facility.

I suppose that visiting her there will give a new sense of how nice it is not being in a prison,, that of my own soon to end marriage.

I feel that sometimes, my own rescuing got me in my own brand of trouble. I am certain that my time on the trail is one that will be productive,, unless I rescue, rescue, rescue again. Peace.

Freezing Cold

I am freezing cold and near the interstate. I find the wind break of the overpass a neat way to block the wind.

Later, I'll go to a bookstore and sleep, but just for now,, it's freezing cold. Hope you are warm and cozy. Peace.

Damn Cold This Morning

It's damn cold this morning and I'm hungry. I kinda slept last night and being on the move ain't exactly the most fun I've ever had.

I wonder why people have to be so damn mean, then I realize that vengence is a very cold drink on a freezing morning. Peace.

Homeless In A Hotel

I'm living in a hotel right now and it ain't grand, but it'll do. The hotel is what I call a 1/2 star and at least it stops the rain and wind.

I doubt Mr. and Mrs. America would ever let their children live in a dump like this,, but when you're broke and have no choice,, well,, it's like a palace.

I hope I can stay here for a day or two,,, the owner said something about trading out room and board for legal work. I hope he means what he says. Until tomorrow,, peace.

Homeless And High Fever

I am not doing well at the moment. I am again homeless and am running a high fever.

I suppose that most homeless people have this problem,, how to get better when no money for sawbones or the antibiotics.

In the end,, maybe those around me will catch what I have and feel how I feel,, maybe not.

All I'm saying is this, swine flu ain't nothing compared to what I've got and I ain't got a way to get better. Peace.

On The Road, Homeless

Well, I'm on the road again, homeless. I simply can not afford the cost of staying at this place that I spent damn near 20 years.

It feels too bad. I don't know where I'm moving to, but when I get there, I'll write. Until then,, peace.