The Homeless Lawyer

Wow, San Antonio

2010-02-14T07:59:00.000-08:00

It's the spring season in San Antonio and I'm kinda ready for it. I've typed my new blog,, added my address and gotten to the discount malls in San Marcos.

What more can I do,, oh yea,, get a home. Peace.

Holy Water Buffalo

2010-02-09T11:16:00.000-08:00

I wonder what would happen if Harry Carey said that instead? Would be we saying he hit the ball a kilometer?

Would we be saying,, oh yea,, well I'm 25 cm, or would it be I'm the greatest in all of Iceland?

I don't know much, but just once I want to set a world record that can't be broken,, even if I'm homeless. Peace.

Having Fun

2010-02-08T09:38:00.000-08:00

I'm having fun and enjoying life,, are you? If not,,, why not?

Help

2010-02-07T10:34:00.000-08:00

I need help in dealing with my ex. I find that she is unreasonable and is not telling the truth about the items we settled on and I'm supposed to get.

Now, she says she never had them and sold them, ever though she represents to the court she has them. I just wonder what I should do?

Do I accept, do I go back to court? Do I sue? All I need is suggestions from you all. Thanks and peace be with you always.

Homeless And Dealng With A Bitch

2010-02-06T09:50:00.000-08:00

Have you ever dealt with a damn lying bitch before? One that is so full of rage and anger that they just lie about things just to feel important or express rage for themselves?

How does it feel to be the object of rage and how does it feel to be homeless? Peace.

Wow Homeless And Not Guilty

2010-02-05T06:18:00.000-08:00

I just got a not guilty on a case I am trying with my good friend Matt S. Matt is one of the most wonderful and brilliant young lawyers I've ever had the pleasure of meeting.

I am waiting to see if I go back into the hospital again. Peace.

Wow, In Trial And Waiting On A Doctor

2010-02-04T08:22:00.000-08:00

Well, I'm in trial again and waiting on a doctor to see if I have to go back to the hospital.

If I pass, this is what I want to do, be in trial and go to the great beyond.

What a finish. Peace.

Howdy

2010-02-03T10:26:00.000-08:00

I'm still without a foundation,, just floating around. There is no more place that I have to take care of and I am free. Are you? Peace.

Help The Homeless

2010-02-01T20:22:00.000-08:00

I will say this,, Christmas is over and there are still homeless people out there.

just remember you too can become homeless. Peace.

Home Again

2010-02-01T05:43:00.000-08:00

I'm in my hotel room and this is what I'm calling home for right now.

It may not be the answer, but it may be. hopefully, I can stay here for awhile.

I suppose that homeless people sometimes stay in a hotel and take advantage of that hospitality. Peace.

Back In Texas

2010-01-31T06:24:00.000-08:00

I'm back in Texas after a trip to NY.

I am in the hospital for staph / mersa that I got in NY and not happy about it.

I guess at least it's my new home for awhile. Peace.

NY Homeless

2010-01-21T04:59:00.000-08:00

Here I am in NY and drifting,, looking for answers.

Here I am in NY sleeping,, wanting to wake up.

Here I am in NY alive,, are you? Peace.

Airport Home

2010-01-20T04:00:00.000-08:00

I spend a great deal of time in airports just getting shelter from the cold and rain and wind.

I often wonder what will happen when they realize I'm existing in their space. Peace.

Ahead A Road

2010-01-19T03:23:00.001-08:00

I'm on the road again this morning, moving around,, restless,, and forever searching.

I just wish my search would lead to inner peace, whether homeless or not. Peace.

Homeless Alone

2010-01-18T04:09:00.000-08:00

I'm alone working on myself again. I find that is the key to being self.

I appreciate those who want to help, but happy journey needs to be alone with himself to grow. Peace.

Homeless Trauma

2010-01-17T06:03:00.000-08:00

I am convinced over time we all suffer trauma. I am convinced that over time, we all cope with a new "trauma" by using the coping skills we first used to survive the initial trauma.

I am convinced that being traumatized over time is a major problem for everyone, especially those who are homeless.

Peace.

Homeless Tired

2010-01-16T05:20:00.000-08:00

I am tired. It ain't easy being tired and working, but that's my truth. How many of you are tired and homeless tough?

Peace.

Homeless

2010-01-14T23:24:00.000-08:00

I suppose the value of a home is immeasurable to some,, and nothing to others. Doesn't it depend on your personal experience? Peace.

homelessness Grounding

2010-01-14T07:50:00.000-08:00

Hey did you ever think about it? How can you be homeless and be grounded?

Peace.

Insomnia

2010-01-13T06:22:00.000-08:00

I have insomnia. I don't know why, but I know I have it now.

I suppose being homeless away from familiar surroundings is why I am feeling this way.

In the end, isn't it a fact we are all homeless with temporary insomnia?

Peace to all.

Houston Is Gone

2010-01-12T04:40:00.001-08:00

I'm so glad I'm leaving Houston today that it ain't even funny.

I had a horrible experience her yesterday and I'm gone from here as soon as I can go.

Thank goodness, it's over, but I'm just glad I can leave, some people can't. Peace.

Homeless, Homeless, Homeless

2010-01-11T03:22:00.000-08:00

I am homeless again and heading to Houston. I stay there tonight and tomorrow for some of my last business I can do.

In the end, I begin to know how a man feels like when he's dying,, it always comes too slow and then too fast.

I hope you all are healthy and happy. Peace.

Just Be Present

2010-01-10T06:48:00.000-08:00

It's a gift to just be present. I often see that in my fellow homeless people who are just absolutely present.

They exist from moment to moment and the future is an illusion, the past is usually painful,, so they live in the present.

Aren't they truly blessed? Peace.

Aren't We All Just Homeless Anyway?

2010-01-08T04:26:00.000-08:00

I often ask this question,, aren't we all just homeless anyway?

I say some have a place they owe the bank that allows them to stay there as long as they pay the banker.

Some of us live with our relatives, or friends,, at what price do we pay for that pleasure?

A few have solved the problem,, aren't they smarter? Aren't they wiser? Aren't we all really just homeless after all? Peace.

Homeless In Dallas

2010-01-07T05:24:00.000-08:00

I'm homeless in Dallas at therapy. It is always interesting to live on an air mattress in a strange city and here is no exception.

In the end, the therapy will matter,, the soon to be ex, whose name must never again be mentioned in public won't. Peace,, it gets easier.

Homeless In Therapy

2010-01-06T05:27:00.000-08:00

I'm homeless in therapy and who's doing better? Me, with no home and no self imposed prison, or you, with all the prison walls you've put up?

Peace.

Homeless Is A State Of Mind

2010-01-04T03:19:00.000-08:00

I have had my life stolen by a reptile,, don't let it happen to you. Live your life to it's fullest. Peace.

Peace

2010-01-03T07:24:00.000-08:00

May peace be with you, always

Homeless In Town

2010-01-02T06:38:00.000-08:00

I'm homeless in a new town and I don't enjoy it much anymore as it's all different. When things are destroyed,, it becomes a burden to live a life of serenity and peace.

When things are rebuilt,, it becomes tough to live with the idea of traumas destroying the old things.

Peace.

Be Yourself,, Even If You're Homeless

2010-01-01T10:28:00.000-08:00

Just be yourself,, even if you are homeless. It's the best way,, just to be.

I enjoy this life,, do you?

Homeless New Year

2009-12-31T03:40:00.000-08:00

It's here,, a new year. Time to rebuild,, time to reload.

It's here,, a new year. Time to explore,, time to just be.

It's here,, a new year. Time for me,, not some reptile.

It's here,, the year of me.

Homeless Starts Over

2009-12-30T04:45:00.000-08:00

I am starting over again. Have you ever done that? Being homeless and starting over is different than I thought it would be.

I suppose that the trauma of new beginnings is to be balanced by the safety of not returning to the trauma of old.

I guess the new is to be lived, while the old is to be studied and lessons learned from it. Peace.

Homeless Chaos

2009-12-29T05:29:00.000-08:00

Here I am,, homeless in a new place and not in chaos. I always thought that would be the defining moment,, being homeless and that my life would be full of chaos,, but it isn't.

In the moment, I am no longer feeling the extreme pull of chaos,, I am feeling some peace, are you?

I hope you find the peace you may seek,, for me it is being homeless,, what's it for you? Peace.

Homeless Forever?

2009-12-28T06:02:00.000-08:00

Homeless this year, maybe.

Homeless in the heart, not.

Homeless, it's where you are.

Homeless is not forever, peace.

Expectations Delayed

2009-12-27T04:37:00.000-08:00

I am supposed to go to another city to meet with a client and I receive a text telling not to come until later.

Normally, this would throw me off, but this year, I'm living in the moment and not gonna worry about it.

In the end, planning leads to disaster,, i.e., my marriage and being in the moment leads to living life.

So for a homeless guy, it's no longer planning things,, it's just doing things. Peace.

Homeless Beginnings

2009-12-26T06:02:00.000-08:00

I guess you can still say I'm homeless, just not as bad. Through the miracle of friends, I'm not living under a bridge,, I'm just homeless from the places I used to live in.

It ain't so bad, being in new places,,, what's bad is not knowing for how long? Peace.

Merry Christmas To All

2009-12-25T11:23:00.000-08:00

Happy Homeless Christmas Eve

2009-12-24T03:09:00.000-08:00

I write this piece while being homeless and facing the holiday season alone.

It is the greatest fear anyone can ever have,, being alone. By being alone and homeless, Christmas looses its appeal.

I hope that each of you has a wonderful Christmas and a happy new year. Peace.

Growing Old Homeless

2009-12-23T04:19:00.000-08:00

I am growing old homeless. I do not fear the growing old part of life,, I do not fear the homelessness,, I fear being alone.

I have now told you my fears,, can you beat me? I haven't told you my dreams,, and I know those dreams keep me going. What are your dreams?

What are the dreams of the homeless? What do the homeless fear? Perhaps,, it is as always,, one must ultimately look into the mirror and face themselves. Peace.

Homeless

2009-12-22T04:19:00.000-08:00

I am homeless and living day to day in an environment without roots. I feel alone, tired and am sore.

I suppose that in the end, the only thing that matters is the daily feelings I have and whether I keep them in or let them out.

Remember to help the homeless as they are people who have feelings too. Peace.

Shortest Day Of The Year

2009-12-21T04:46:00.000-08:00

It's the shortest day of the year and I'm getting ready to shut down for the holidays.

I have moved to a new town and have found a flop house that I am living in right now.

I begin to feel uneasy as the move is uncertain, new and scary, but I feel better because the move is away from the old and into the new.

I wish each of you a happy holiday season and hope you have many, many more. Peace.

Christmas Joy

2009-12-20T04:55:00.000-08:00

I remember the joy I used to have at Christmas, way before the soon to be ex whose name must never again be mentioned in public trapped me in a prison of marriage.

I remember the tree, the family get together and the happiness I had,, never to have that in the prison of marriage.

It is no wonder why there never was joy in prison,, it was all give, give, give and never receive.

I hope each of you out there, homeless or not, has joy today and is not in a prison. Peace.

Homeless Christmas

2009-12-19T04:53:00.000-08:00

It is Christmas all over again,, another one that is quickly passing. But what does it mean when I'm homeless?

I have a candle and a plant that is in the lobby of the flop house I'm staying in, so maybe,, Christmas for me is different than for others.

I guess being homeless is not having a sense of connection,, but I have my new friend the plant in the lobby,, so it ain't all bad.

Just buy a homeless person a Christmas present this year. Peace.

Modern Homelessness

2009-12-18T02:53:00.000-08:00

You know, I've learned that being homeless is more than just living in different places,,, it is tearing up the heart that I can't root.

I suppose that those who are also homeless, can not root and are not grounded, but I'm not sure.

Anyway, have a nice day and remember the power of self is the power of all. Peace.

Homeless Holidays

2009-12-17T04:53:00.000-08:00

Buy a homeless man or woman or child a Christmas present,, something they would use. Buy those "throw away" people a gift from your heart this season.

Hopefully, the love you show will help them,, those "un-pretty people". Remember,, we're all just one tragedy away from being homeless. Peace.

Homeless Justice

2009-12-15T18:28:00.000-08:00

I am responsible for those who are homeless and need justice. I am responsible for those who need legal help and can't afford it or are too proud to ask for it.

I am responsible for those,, well,, those people. I am responsible for the homeless people who need representation. Peace.

Homeless With A Plant And A Candle

2009-12-15T03:53:00.000-08:00

I'm moving to a new area of Texas shortly and I'm looking for a plant and a candle to share my new space with.

I am moving into a flop house shortly and I know that this time will be spent to find me and to get to love me.

May each of you find joy in your own space. Peace.

Alone,, Or Am I?

2009-12-14T07:08:00.000-08:00

Here I am alone again,, or am I? It seems to me that that most of my "prison / marriage" was spent alone with someone who didn't love me or care for anything but what she could get.

So am I alone? Or is it the new way of life,, with me? Am I homeless, or am I present with myself?

Can you be homeless and happy? Or must you be homeless and alone? Peace.

Homeless, Just Plain Homeless

2009-12-13T07:08:00.000-08:00

I am homeless and that's all it is. Just plain homeless. I lose a very good friend today and I'm now just plain homeless.

I wonder if love isn't when 2 people know that their time together is very, very limited.

I suppose that people take others for granted when they don't appreciate another,, they only truly love when they treasure their time together.

I wonder if love isn't a fleeting moment and I wonder if the homeless and those who are present don't already know this gem. Peace.

Centering

2009-12-12T09:51:00.000-08:00

Can you center and exist when you are homeless and question your right to exist? Well, can you? Peace.

Homeless And Moving Around

2009-12-11T06:41:00.000-08:00

I move around a lot. It is what happens when you are homeless. I live one day here and then one day there and then one day wherever.

I am homeless and I am.

Homeless In Court

2009-12-10T03:48:00.000-08:00

I represent homeless people in court quite frequently. They are not bad people,, just people like you and me who have never had the breaks necessary to live the life the pretty people live.

I know a hell of a lot of people who look down on the homeless,, they say "those" people are all on welfare, crack or are drunks.

I say this,, never judge a book by its cover and until you walk a mile in their shoes,, you don't know "those" people.

Remember,, we're all one event away from being homeless. Peace.

Slow Down

2009-12-09T05:30:00.000-08:00

I am slowing down, but today I am late. I have to be in a different county and overslept. Oops.

On The Road Again

2009-12-08T05:56:00.000-08:00

I am on the road again,, just being. I do not enjoy being on the road,, but I am no longer in areas that are what I am used to.

It's funny,, a journey begins with the first steps. I'm taking them,, do you have the courage to take them? Peace.

Wouldn't It Be Nice To,,,

2009-12-07T06:54:00.000-08:00

Wouldn't it be nice to not be sick.

Wouldn't it be nice to live in a real house.

Wouldn't it be nice to have others play by the rules.

Wouldn't it be nice to feel love.

Wouldn't it be nice to be free.

Wouldn't it be nice to just to be nice.

Peace for your holidays.

On The Trail

2009-12-06T05:05:00.000-08:00

I'm on the trail,, in Austin today. I have a client,, hopefully,, who is arrested and now living in the Travis County Correctional Facility.

I suppose that visiting her there will give a new sense of how nice it is not being in a prison,, that of my own soon to end marriage.

I feel that sometimes, my own rescuing got me in my own brand of trouble. I am certain that my time on the trail is one that will be productive,, unless I rescue, rescue, rescue again. Peace.

Freezing Cold

2009-12-05T03:29:00.000-08:00

I am freezing cold and near the interstate. I find the wind break of the overpass a neat way to block the wind.

Later, I'll go to a bookstore and sleep, but just for now,, it's freezing cold. Hope you are warm and cozy. Peace.

Damn Cold This Morning

2009-12-04T03:35:00.000-08:00

It's damn cold this morning and I'm hungry. I kinda slept last night and being on the move ain't exactly the most fun I've ever had.

I wonder why people have to be so damn mean, then I realize that vengence is a very cold drink on a freezing morning. Peace.

Homeless In A Hotel

2009-12-03T04:03:00.000-08:00

I'm living in a hotel right now and it ain't grand, but it'll do. The hotel is what I call a 1/2 star and at least it stops the rain and wind.

I doubt Mr. and Mrs. America would ever let their children live in a dump like this,, but when you're broke and have no choice,, well,, it's like a palace.

I hope I can stay here for a day or two,,, the owner said something about trading out room and board for legal work. I hope he means what he says. Until tomorrow,, peace.

Homeless And High Fever

2009-12-02T04:11:00.000-08:00

I am not doing well at the moment. I am again homeless and am running a high fever.

I suppose that most homeless people have this problem,, how to get better when no money for sawbones or the antibiotics.

In the end,, maybe those around me will catch what I have and feel how I feel,, maybe not.

All I'm saying is this, swine flu ain't nothing compared to what I've got and I ain't got a way to get better. Peace.

On The Road, Homeless

2009-12-01T05:44:00.000-08:00

Well, I'm on the road again, homeless. I simply can not afford the cost of staying at this place that I spent damn near 20 years.

It feels too bad. I don't know where I'm moving to, but when I get there, I'll write. Until then,, peace.

Today's The Day

2009-11-30T04:16:00.000-08:00

It's on today,, the move. I still don't know where I'm going, but I'm going. It's come down to this,, I've got no more money to hold on to a place with such bad memories.

I suppose that this place has left me with some good memories after 19 years, but, in reality, the thought of living here any longer is full of bad memories and moments.

I suppose that in the end, the memories of bad far out weigh any good of having a roof over my head.

I don't suppose that any of you can understand. I suppose that's how the native Americans feel when forced to live on the reservation and not be allowed to live free as in the old days.

The thought of being confined in a prison is never as good as the reality of freedom. Peace until we meet again.

2 Days Left

2009-11-29T05:14:00.000-08:00

I'm moving in 2 days and it doesn't seem possible, but it's true. I am going to move to a new area and start all over again.

I see a new beginning,, a new vision,, a new way of life.

I see freedom,, I see romance and I see adventure. Even when I'm homeless, I see these things for me. Wow.

I suspect that freedom is just a chance to live again with new ideas. I'll go there. Peace.

3 Days Left

2009-11-28T04:33:00.000-08:00

I can not believe that in 3 days, I'll be moving,, going on to somewhere new. But I will be doing that.

I have only so much money and time left and then I will be moving. I am certain that in the end, the move will be beneficial, but in the meantime, it's difficult.

I am ready to go,, back to homelessness,, are you? Peace.

4 Days To Go

2009-11-27T04:50:00.000-08:00

I have only 4 more days here and then I move. I don't know where I'll go yet, but I'm going somewhere.

I suppose that people who lose their homes can relate to this, but there is a great sadness coming over me and something isn't right.

I guess the people who know this feeling are probably in the missions now and probably don't remember it at all,, but I do.

I just want everyone to know that even you can be displaced and feel a great deal of sadness in your life.

Remember it isn't the experiences in life that are important,, it's the lessons we learn from them. Peace to all.

5 Days To Go

2009-11-26T05:02:00.000-08:00

I'm down to 5 days until I move and I don't like this feeling. It's bad enough not knowing where I'm going, but then I know,, it'll be different.

I remember thinking about this when I knew the time I would spend here is running out,, I knew it would be a big adjustment to leave.

In my time here, I understand that sadness is just a feeling and there are many more feelings to come.

Hope you all have a happy holiday and remember to go to the shelter to feed the homeless, they need it. Peace.

6 Days To A New Feeling

2009-11-25T04:57:00.000-08:00

It's 6 more days and then I be having some new feelings. I don't know where I'm going to live, but I'll figure out something.

I often wonder where I will go, but in the end, it doesn't matter, because the place that I end up living in will be different.

I must say that I do not like being homeless and I often wonder what the hell people think when they kill someone,, but that's their deal,, not mine.

Oh well, until tomorrow,, peace be with you always.

Moving On In 7 Days

2009-11-24T03:48:00.001-08:00

I'm moving in 7 days. I don't know where yet, but I must move nonetheless. I am certain that the adventure is just beginning and not ending.

In the end, locations don't matter, it's the lessons we learn that do. Peace to all and happy thanksgiving,, even to those that have no food or home.

8 Days With A Roof

2009-11-23T04:09:00.000-08:00

I have only 8 more days with a roof over my head and I'm feeling it.

I wonder where I'll land and what I'll do, but I know this,, I am free, are you? Peace.

Freedom While Being Homeless

2009-11-22T04:38:00.000-08:00

I am free today. I am homeless in 9 days again. I make choices and I have boundaries.

It is rather interesting being free,, no home,, no commitments,, just free.

In the end, homelessness has its advantages,, being free is one of many. Peace.

Homeless In 10 Days

2009-11-21T04:38:00.000-08:00

Well, it's only 10 more days and I'm homeless again. I don't know what to say, but here it is,, facing me.

I know that my time here is very limited and in the end, I must go. I wonder why people treat others the way they do,, then I realize that they were never loved.

In the end, situational living arrangements don't bother me,, not telling the truth does. Peace.

I'm Homeless Again

2009-11-20T03:53:00.000-08:00

It's official,, I'm out in the cold,, the rain and the wind. I am losing my health insurance and I'm strangely okay with it.

I guess the ride is over and the reality is now. In the end, the feelings I have don't matter to those who have none.

I suppose I'll mosey along the trail and be present,, in the moment. Peace.

Homeless Song

2009-11-19T03:45:00.000-08:00

I suppose that I, like everyone else I know,, has a song in them. I often wonder what song I sing and then I realize this song is one of awakening.

How is it possible to sing a song when you are without a home? How is it possible to sing a song when you are without anything?

I sing my song loudly so that I hear it,, no one else need hear it or feel it or even understand it,, I do.

In the end, my song is sung by me, for me, and about me. It is a song of my life,, not yours.

I hope that someday you will find happiness and joy and hope you remember that all you have can be taken away in a minute. Peace.

Homeless Poet

2009-11-18T05:34:00.000-08:00

I begin to see transformation in my life. I begin to see awaking as I write and as I live.

Can I be free without the bondage of "possession chains" that tie me? Can I be free?

I write the feelings I have and I see the beginnings unfold in front of me. I am alive.

Oh hopeless mind, cluttering me to think, see not the day.

Feel the wind on my face and know the beginning is now.

Alive,, shout to the trees, lurk in "pretty people" land, stay not.

Feel free,, be present,, live.

May peace be with you always,, love life.

Old And Homeless

2009-11-17T04:14:00.000-08:00

Today, I am old. I am near homelessness. I am feeling how it is that I am making this choice and then remember,, for me,, it is a choice.

At any moment my temporary "home" can be taken from me. At any moment, I can be back out there and then I remember, I'm old and homeless.

How is it my life worked out this way? How is it I am where I am? It is as they say, destiny,, or is it in the moment?

Old and homeless,, old and homeless. Peace.

Home And In The Moment

2009-11-16T04:01:00.000-08:00

I'm in Houston today and I'm in the moment. I spent the weekend with a group of lawyers who work on themselves and are present.

I am amazed that I got so much rest,, I suspect that I did because I was with family and safe.

Did you ever feel bad about the troubles you have? I do, but sometimes I wonder if maybe, just maybe, the troubles I have are because I'm not in the moment.

In the end, whatever happens, home or no home, just be present in the moment. Peace.

Alone In A Crowd Of Pretty People

2009-11-15T05:00:00.001-08:00

I'm all alone in a crowd of pretty people. I feel inadequate,,, with all these pretty people around me.

I wonder why I'm here,, yet, I feel that I am worthy of being here, even if I'm all alone in the crowd.

I suppose that most everyone at one time or another has not fit in,, yet,, I don't care about that,, I'm all alone because I see the pain of those "pretty people" trying ever so hard to fit into the herd.

I watch the leaders of the "pretty people" and see that when the rank and file leave for just a minute, the "pretty people" leaders make fun of those who just left,, (the non-pretty people).

When they return, the "pretty people" welcome them back into their group. I watch. I see. I feel a great deal of sadness for those "pretty people".

Is it any wonder I'm alone,, I don't wear the clothes the "pretty people" wear. I don't belong to the clubs the "pretty people" belong to. Yet,, I watch,, I hear,, I see,, and most of all I feel. Peace.

Fear Of Being Homeless And Alone

2009-11-14T04:51:00.000-08:00

I often fear the biggest punishment in life,,, not being homeless,,, but being alone.

I sit with myself and listen to the wind,, but in the end,, I worry that I will not be loved.

I am worthy of love and I am not concerned about being homeless,, I will survive.

In the end, it is more important to love than to have a home.

I just hope that sometime in the future, life will reward me with a home,,, but more importantly,, I want to feel loved. Peace.

Home With The Tribe

2009-11-13T03:35:00.000-08:00

I'm going to Dallas to meet with the tribe this weekend. At least I won't be homeless.

I often wonder if meeting with tribe members is the best way to ensure survival of an idea.

Anyway, for the price of gas, I'm going to Dallas. Peace.

Homeless Again Soon

2009-11-12T03:07:00.000-08:00

I am going to be homeless again shortly. I see the end coming quickly for my short stay in Houston.

I guess in the end, being homeless is going to be a test again of my powers to survive and I feel like the ones on the streets become my friends.

I will no longer know the pleasure of a shower on a daily basis,, just the sponge bath.

I will no longer know the restful sleep,, just stress of keeping one eye open. I guess the journey I undertake soon will be the journey I have avoided for all of my life,, the journey to discover my instincts and survive. Peace.

I'm Going To Be Homeless Again

2009-11-10T19:06:00.000-08:00

It looks like I'm going to be homeless again. Maybe, the crap that happens is just crap, but maybe it's the way it is.

In the end, homelessness is a real threat and I'm not dealing with it very well. Peace.

Homeless Breakfast

2009-11-10T06:24:00.000-08:00

I'm running late and I'm very concerned that I won't get my breakfast. I often wonder what would happen if I miss breakfast again?

I'm just thinking,, that if you fuck with the bull, you get the horns,, whatever the hell that means.

Anyway, taking little steps is the way to go,,, sometimes, people want to take giant steps and they get no results,, taking little steps gets results.

My steps are simple,, I need to eat and eat I will. Peace.

Home Cooking

2009-11-09T03:55:00.000-08:00

It ain't easy having home cooking when you don't have a home.

I have eaten beans out of the can and heated only a little bit from a fire I was able to make. It ain't much, but it is good.

I often say, give gratitude to the home cooking you get in life, you never know when it might stop.

Have a nice day and be kind to the homeless,, they might not have eaten today. Peace.

Homeless, Hungry And Blue

2009-11-08T07:02:00.000-08:00

I'm hungry and I'll go get something to eat so why am I blue?

I guess that feeling blue is a way of expressing things that we all have,,, sometimes, it's happy, sometimes,, it's blue.

I don't know why I'm blue,, I just am. So today, I'll sit in the blue and just honor it.

Peace from the homeless lawyer who is feeling blue today.

Home And Feeling Safe

2009-11-07T04:32:00.000-08:00

I remember the great feeling of being safe growing up where I had my home and family.

I understand the great healing power of roots and family.

What about those who are homeless? Do they have roots? Do they feel safe?

In the time I was homeless, and may be again shortly, I felt the insecurity and being alone. I was not safe.

Home is a safe place, a sanctuary,, not an abandoned building. Remember to feed the homeless, they are not feeling safe. Peace.

Happy Home That Is No Home

2009-11-06T04:05:00.001-08:00

I remember what it was like growing up in a home. Now, I begin to wonder what it may be like without one and living?

Just when I get a favorable ruling from the bench,, "lawyer" tries to change that and no more home,,, it ain't right.

Oh well, I wonder at what price does it take to be an asshole? Is it worth the price to shout impressive crap to your client and then run and hide? More money for "lawyer" stirring the pot.

If I have no home,,, so be it. If I do,, so be it. In the end,, "crap" costs the client more and more and more.

Take away my home and begin battle. Peace.

Homeless Home

2009-11-05T04:24:00.000-08:00

I fear the very thought of being homeless again, but it can happen. I suppose that being homeless once is enough to keep me on guard again for homelessness.

I do not feel very safe when those "Lawyers" steal the safe feeling I had leaving the hearing the other day.

I suppose that there is never enough to go around for users,, that they have always taken, taken, taken because no one ever stood up to them.

What will happen when I stand up? What will they do? Lie? Steal? Or will they understand the homelessness and be able to reverse roles with a homeless person?

In the end, those that know the feelings of the homeless, know the truth,,, those that don't are users. Peace.

Lawyer Trying To Make Me Homeless Again

2009-11-04T04:44:00.000-08:00

I am upset at the lawyer who misstates the facts to the court. I was ordered possession of the Houston condo and now the "lawyer" wants me to pay for it. I can't. He is trying to make me homeless again.

I am sure the homeless feel trapped. First they get above the fray, then are pulled back by lawyers who lie.

I suppose that in the end, the condo in Houston will not get paid and be lost forever. I just want a place to stay,, is that too much to ask for?

Not Sleeping

2009-11-03T03:40:00.000-08:00

I'm not sleeping very well in a hotel room while waiting to get back to trial. I "rented" this room with what little money I have and it shows.

Trying to sleep in a strange place, just brought back night terrors of sleeping on the bus stop bench of just a few days ago. It ain't pretty.

Anyway, I don't like this having to sleep in strange places and I'm off to Dallas for therapy after this trial.

Have a nice day and remember the trauma the homeless suffer,, I can tell you it's real. Peace.

On the Raod Again

2009-11-01T17:16:00.000-08:00

It's off to the country I go to finish a trial and then it's off to Dallas.

I remember how it feels being homeless and living in a motel will be no different tonight.

I expect the trial to finish Tuesday and then I go to Dallas for the time of my life,,, therapy.

Have a nice day and be extremely nice to the homeless,, they are people also. Peace.

Sleep's Good In A Bed

2009-11-01T03:04:00.000-08:00

I slept last night in a real bed,, not under a bridge or on a park bench and it felt good.

The problem I have though, is I keep waking up to the nightmares of my shoes being stolen and I keep kicking and kicking and kicking.

I wonder if being homeless hasn't activated an instinct buried deep down inside me,,, the instinct to sense energy while sleeping.

I know that is crazy, even earplugs don't help, but it is interesting that I wake up every time there is some noise or movement I sense.

Anyway, have a nice day and remember to help those less fortunate than yourself. Peace.

I've Got A Home

2009-10-31T06:00:00.000-07:00

I've got a place to stay now. I get to live in Houston in a real home, with a real closet and a real bed.

No more sleeping in an abandoned building or on a park bench. A real bed, wow. So I will say this, in the end homelessness sucks, but you can get out of it.

I'm now going to go to sleep in a real bed, in a building that has heat and not have to worry about getting mugged or things stolen from me while I try to sleep.

Remember to help those homeless people, not everyone is as lucky as you reading this article. Peace.

Judgment Day For The Homeless Lawyer

2009-10-30T04:00:00.000-07:00

Today is my temporary hearing in my divorce case. I am ready to have this matter over as soon as possible.

I know the divorce case will drag on and on and on but the temporary hearing should go rather quickly and I'll know what I can do after this hearing is over.

I just want to have a place to sleep and a bed to go to every night. This homeless crap gets old and I'm tired.

I will let you all know what happens and until then,, have a nice day and remember to help the homeless,, they are real people too.

Peace.

Home Is About To Change

2009-10-29T03:21:00.000-07:00

My temporary hearing is tomorrow and I'm not feeling right. I am just not feeling present. I suppose that the current living arrangements, (none) are bothering me, or maybe my lack of space or any number of other things.

I just know I ain't feeling right and I sure as hell ain't feeling present. I guess that the entire homeless thing is messing with me.

I don't know what is wrong, but something sure as hell is. Anyway, I'm just needing a hug.

I hope you all have a nice day and remember that those who have lost their homes are still deserving of love and respect. Peace.

Another Delay

2009-10-28T03:39:00.000-07:00

The temporary orders in my divorce case were supposed to be today. The hearing has been reset until Friday.

So it goes, more uncertainty, more trauma, more waiting, more homelessness.

I guess the toll of homelessness adds up on me and waiting is something I do not like to do. Especially when it involves my future.

I suppose that I can wait 2 more days and then let's see.

Hopefully, you'll never be homeless, but if you ever are, remember I love you, even if others don't.

Home Is Where I Sleep Now

2009-10-27T04:33:00.000-07:00

Home is where I sleep now. I am unable to go to any house and call it home, so I call my home wherever I sleep.

It's kinda weird not having a central location to call home, but that's the way it is,, no home. I suppose that in the end, it won't really matter, I'm still trying to find some balance in my otherwise troubled life.

The balance I'm finding is quite simple,, I just keep on going. I no longer have the roots to say live in Houston or wherever,, I just say I'm present.

I hope that you can understand that a home is where you make it and not where you live,,, I've had to make that adjustment.

Have a nice day and please give a blanket to a homeless person,, it's gonna get damn cold soon. Peace.

My Home Is Now Being Homeless

2009-10-26T03:38:00.000-07:00

I now have a home and my home is being homeless. It sucks. Plain and simple,, it sucks. I have this idea that someday, I will be able to stabilize in an environment that is secure and warm.

In today's world, being homeless is a blow to the ego, but more importantly, it's a lifestyle that I've come to adjust to temporarily. I do not think that being homeless will be the way I live the rest of my life, but right now, that's how I'm living.

I suspect that seeing great injuries in my life and great injustices will make me a better person, and at least just for now, I'm okay.

In the end, I will allow myself the absolute pleasure of knowing about life and not caring what "others" may think. I suppose that may or may not mean I'm homeless, but I will enjoy the lessons I learn along the way.

Have a nice day and stay safe and warm. Peace.

How Do I Shower?

2009-10-25T05:54:00.000-07:00

Well, that's a good question,,, sometimes once or twice a day, but sometimes, not every day.

It seems when you are homeless, you do not get all the benefits of having a home,,, so I sometimes stay with friends and I get to shower daily.

Sometimes I sneak into health clubs and can shower there. Sometimes, I go to truck stops and shower there, sometimes I go and sponge bath.

It's interesting being homeless, but it is not for the light hearted. I recommend having water and a shower if you are to function in the world of the light.

Have a nice day and be kind to those who are less fortunate than you. Peace.

Homeless In Houston Again

2009-10-24T04:08:00.000-07:00

I am in Houston and currently homeless, looking for a place to do some work. My friend lets me go to his office and use a desk there to place all my thoughts and work on my computer.

I have to draft a counter-claim in my divorce lawsuit and a arbitration complaint also. I have some matters that I must complete for some clients and prepare for trial in another county on Monday.

It is hell being homeless, not having a desk, nor a chair, nor a sanctuary I can retreat to and just be alone.

I spent the night staying awake all night and frankly,, I'm fucking tired. It seems that the more I struggle, the worse off it is.

I want this crap to end and yet, I will not just give up,, it ain't right. I'll hang out,, homeless,, waiting for justice to ride a slow mule.

Have a nice day and remember to feed the homeless, they really need it.

I'm Back In Houston

2009-10-23T03:27:00.001-07:00

I'm back in Houston today and I'll have to figure out somewhere to sleep tonight. One of the key things about being homeless is having many friends.

I know that there are so many good and decent folk out there, that all I have to do is ask them for help and they will help me.

I suppose that in my experience as a homeless person, ego would get in the way of a place to stay, if I didn't have so many friends.

Here's what I mean by that, most people will let you stay with them for a day or two without much problem, but try and stay a few days or a month and guess what,, problem.

I suppose that because of the number of friends I have, I can stay with people for a few days, but on Monday I have a trial in a foreign county and I don't know anyone I can stay with.

So, I suppose that ego can get in the way of me asking for a place to stay and I'll have to figure out something.

Anyway, it's nice not to sleep under a bridge today, but who knows what tomorrow will bring. Have a nice day and remember to hug a homeless person,, they are human also.